2009.

wow. 2009 was a REALLY good year for me. I brought in the new year with my family & then fiance (who is now my husband). I spent January & February in El Paso (Texas, USA) getting mentally ready for my move abroad. I'd never been to Europe, now I reside in Germany! :o) I got married 3.3.2009♥ & left for Germany on 12th. I've made A LOT of changes since then.. I try to be less angry & aggravated. I'm still confrontational but hey, thats me. I'm learning to pick my battles. Don't get it confused. I'll never be timid. I just know what's worth fighting for. I've realized that I have to leave the petty arguments to children. I'm not "changing" myself in 2010. I like ME the way I am. It was the ppl around me that needed to be adjusted...

hi.

My name is: Glenesse.
My blogger name is: Black-Barbi3.
My friends call me: Glenesse, Glen, David.
I live in: Kaiserslautern, Germany.
My birthday’s on: September 28.
Right now I am: sick :(
I like to eat: food - junk, sweet, sour, salty, spicy, hot, cold whatever.. it’s food :)
And I like to: make people happy :)
People think I am: high maintenance.
But I really am: a sweet person with a good heart. promise.
I am on blogger because: i get to say what i want & y'all let me.

My BFF Jill

actually, her name's Frances & this BFFness was est. in 2006 :o)

what do you think?!

What's the use of doing the "right" thing if you still get treated like a criminal?! If you're already in prison, on lock down w/ no visitation you might as well slap the C.O. when he comes threw. There's nothing else they can do to you. I know I'm not the only one that feels this way. Sometimes I think about the choices that I've made. Even though most were made hastily & for the wrong reasons they did all have their own little way of working themselves out. But my question is this: if I constantly have that NEGATIVE reinforcement present what's the point?! Why should I waste my time trying to do shit differently when I always end up with the same results?! It just makes NO sense to me..

men dump women for 11 reasons:

#1: she was too negative

#2: he took her for granted

#3: his friends or family didn’t like her

#4: he “misread” his feelings

#5: he felt selfish

#6: they’re lives were moving in different directions

#7: all of his friends broke up with their girlfriends so he wanted to join the club

#8: he was tempted to cheat (but didn’t)

#9: things just started dying after the sex

#10: someone in the relationship was a little too serious

#11: he got bored

--lol @ # 7! pls tell me guys aren't that stupid!

feelings.

"I’ve been giving up on people too easily.If they don’t call, if they don’t try- then I don’t. It’s not fair to lay the blame on them when I’m not calling either. I’m just as much at fault. I’ve got a lot of resentment for old friends- for letting me go without a fight. I just want someone to call and say “I miss you, how are you?” I just want to call someone and say “I miss you, I’m sorry.” I want to be brave enough to stay in one place."

soldier shit.

if you have a spouse, sibling or friend deployed down range (Iraq/Afghanistan) what i'm about to blog might strike you as strange. as a soldier i support President Obama. maybe its because of my job. even though i can be deployed, once i get there i'll more than likely stay on base.. unless i volunteer for a convoy or something i don't have to leave. soldiers mindsets are different than civilians. yeah, we'll bitch and complain about it but when the 1st & 15th roll around we're all smiles. money isn't everything but it sure does help your situation. soldiers in Iraq/Afghanistan receive tax free pay, family separation pay, imminent danger pay & the list goes on and on. we're TRAINED for this.

i remember sitting around the TV at the time of the election with my unit. you wouldn't believe how many ppl didn't want President Obama to win just because of the fact that he was talking about pulling soldiers from Iraq & Afghanistan. this is what some of us live for. you know how many soldiers have paid of their cars/homes just by doing a 12 month tour?! the best thing you can do for a soldier downrange is be supportive. they need that. emotionally & spiritually your support is what keeps them sane.

formSPRiNG

Can I be your Jody shorty
- 0_o uh, NO. i'm HAPPILY married hun. but thnks for asking.

mcDonalds run

top (?!). Anchor Blue jeans. ALDO boots. D&B purse

hard.

& my runway never looked so clear

but the hottest bitch in heels right here. no fear

& while youre gettin your cry on

i'm gettin my fly on. sincere

i see you aiming at my pedestal

i better let you know

that i, i, i, i'm so hard

yeah, yeah, yeah, i'm so hard

more VENTING.

i felt it was my DUTY to address this situation. i have been referred to as "Barbie" since 06. really. before Nicki Minaj. at one point, me & my BFFs were going to get matching tattoos. hers was to say "VI Beauty" & mine was to say "VI Barbie". i remember my ex saying "it sounds too conceited".. so i want EVERYONE to kill that Nicki talk. i'll give it to her, she did start a movement though. everywhere i turn bitches biting her shit. i bet some ppl don't even know what "harajuku" means. & some of these females look like "barbies" from the dollar store. man, somebody need to check credentials. some of ya'll lowering the property value on the whole thing...

gpoyw

gratuitous pic of yourself - Wednesday

Fort Hood :o(

as ya'll know, i am a soldier in the United States Army. i really had to gather my thoughts before i touched on this.. 13 dead?! 31 injured?! my ♥ broke when i heard about this. soldiers should NEVER experience this at the hand of a fellow service member. this tragic event hit home for me:

1. because my husband is stationed there (he's currently deployed though)
2. i was supposed to be stationed there but the paperwork wasnt done in time.
3. i got married there.

what really ANNOYS the fckn piss outta me though is that all the ppl that are analyzing & giving opinions about the situation and talking shit about soldiers have:

1. have NEVER had post traumatic stress disorder (ptsd).
2. have never deployed.
3. never served in the military

what THEE fck can you tell me (& the rest of America for that matter) about something you know NOTHING about. how can you sit here and talk shit about the ppl who risk there lives to make sure your country stays free?! how can you blame the actions of 1 sickly screwed up person on the ENTIRE military?! My condolensences to the families of the victims. Noone should ever have to experience that. your supposed to be able to trust/depend on your fellow soldiers to bring you home safely. To see someone with soo much rank & time in service do something that selfish & stupid hurts.. i hope he dies a SLOW & PAiNFUL death.

BADbxtches

infoRMATION

Name: glenesse.
Single or taken: maRRied*
Sex: Female
Birthday: 9.28.88♥
Sign: libra.
Siblings: 6.
Hair color: dirtyBROWN.
Eye color: darkBROWN.
Height: 5’5

R E L A T I O N S H I P S
Are you straight/​​bisexual/​​gay?​​:​​ straight like iNDian hair
Who are your best friends?: maine, deneal, nisan, frances, houston.
You have a boyfriend/​​girlfriend?​​:​​ no. i have a HUSBAND♥

F A S H I O N | S T U F F
Where is your favourite place to shop for clothes: online, lol
Any tattoos or piercings: 6 piercings. 0 tats.
What is your most comfortable outfit: baby tee, jeans, sneakers.
What do you usually wear?: clothes.

S P E C I F I C S
Do you do drugs? nope.
What kind of shampoo do you use?: dove.
What are you most afraid of?: why the fck would i tell you?!
What are you listening to right now: USDA -- Give it Up
Who is the last person that you called? tramaine
Who is the last person that called you?: tramaine
Where do you want to get married?: i'm already married.
What would you change about yourself?: i like me. dont you?! lol

F A V O R I T E S
Colors: blue
Foods: eye-talian
Movies: too many
Animals: -blank stare-

H A V E | Y O U | E V E R
Given anyone a bath?: mhm
Smoked?: uhh, yeah.
Bungee jumped?: negative.
Made yourself throw up?: nope
Skinny dipped?: mhm
Ever been in love?: Yes.
Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: Yes.
Seen your crush naked?: nope
Cried when someone died?: mhm
Lied: mhm
Fallen for your best friend?: -bows head-
Rejected someone?: to this day..
Used someone?: and i am not proud of it
Done something you regret?: nope

C U R R E N T
Clothes: ACUs (army camo uniform)
Music: Jeeeeeeeeeeeezy!
Annoyance: lol. you already know..
CD in player: we still have those?!
DVD in player: Notorious

L A S T | P E R S O N
You left a message for: Nisan
You texted: Vera
You cuddled with: ---
You kissed: uh..

A R E | Y O U
Understanding: at times,
Open-minded: Yes.
Arrogant: I can be..
Persistent: yes.
Insecure: yeah, right. lol
Hungry: YES!
Smart: I’d like to think.
Moody: very.
Hard working: Depends
Organized: eh, sometimes? lol.
Healthy: unfortunately
Difficult: VERY
Bored easily: Yes!
Obsessed: negative.
Angry: always
Sad: no.
Happy: eh,
Hyper: not today
Trusting: mhm

Meet Mr B. Dash:

One of thee most talented music artist & graphic designers i know to date! I def had to shout him out. He's a father, rapper, writer, graphic designer, 1/4 of the group VIP and all around good guy. Check out his blogger home PURPLE HAZED & his TWITTER. with that being said, here are a few quick pieces i stole from his MYSPACE page, lol! Enjoy!

Love vs Respect

So, i've been reading this book by Dr Emerson Eggerichs. its called "Love & Respect" and it shares alot of insight into what it takes to make a marriage work. basically it talks about a females basic need for love and a males basic need for respect. It talks about the "Crazy Cycle":

without love SHE REACTS without respect HE REACTS without love

And so it goes, over and over. It identifies ways that a husband and wife should react to each other. It talks about how husbands should show their wives "unconditional love" while their wives simultaneously show "unconditional respect". It also brings the logical point that husbands do not have to "earn respect". It should be given to them. How would wives feel if their husbands told them they had to "earn love"?! It also goes into the "Energizing Cycle":

HIS LOVE motivates HER RESPECT motivates HIS LOVE

I could type for ages about this book, but if your really intent on trying to enlighten yourself, hit up AMAZON, purchase the book and read it. not only that, APPLY IT. its worth a shot. I mean, there is nothing to lose but sooo much you could gain..

MY RATING: ★★★★★ - 5 out of 5 stars

another question.

How often do you have sex?
- its been a while, but i'll tell you this: in 2 weeks my husband goes on R&R from Iraq. it'll be straight baby making!

formSPRING

how is your head game?
- uh-may-zin. lol ;o)

Remember: Link on the right if you'd like to ask questions too!

oh.em.gee!

i'm so excited! i'm so happy! i FINALLY have something to look forward too! I just got an email from a very important person. a person that made a life changing decision for me. basically, they are reassigning my husband to Germany! :o) idc if no one else is as ecstatic as we are, because after being apart for more than a year we'll be together again. shutting shit down, whoop'n ass & taking names! :o)

lmfao!

friends :o)

Spongebob: What do you usually do when I'm gone?
Patrick: Wait for you to come back.

gpoyw

gratuitous pic of yourself WEDNESDAY

-venting-

i hate being dependent. point blank. i know men are supposed to "take care of you" but fck all that. noone does anything out of the kindness of their heart. they will always want something in return & honestly, i'm not one for the pressure. fck that. thats why i appreciate the fact that i can swipe my OWN shit. thats the reason i've had a job since i was 17. thats the reason i go to school. even though i'm married and all that, i dont NEED to be. i'd stand on my own 2 just fine. it just dont sit well with me that my vagina (or me in general, for that matter) would be worth the same as a diamond necklace or a pair of shoes. relationships (to me, anyway) are basically socially accepted prostitution. basically: if you arent fckn for immediate gain, your trying to get something later down the line. its that simple. but hey, take if for what its worth..

:oT

They say a ‘G’ don’t give a bitch no keys or security codes

I agree, my lady ain’t no bitch she gets whatever I own

so when you see her, understand that’s me
-- Jay Z

Friends keep telling me ‘leave her’, I wont
Cuz she see’s something in me that I don’t
And I see something in her that y’all wont
If you never been in love don’t tell me I’m wrong

-- Joe Budden

I don’t walk around trying to be what I’m not

don’t waste my time trying to get what you got

I work at pleasing me cause I can’t please you

and that’s why I do what I do
-- Erykah Badu

Got everybody watchin’ what I do
Come walk in my shoes
And see the way I’m livin,’ if you really want to
--Rihanna

LEARN me.

APPEARANCE:
I am 5’5.
I do not have many scars.
I tan easily.
I ♥ my hair color.
I am self-conscious about my appearance to the point of conceit.
I never had braces.
I have a tattoo.
I wear glasses.
I’ve been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger.
I have more than 5 piercings.
I have piercings in places besides my ears.

FAMILY/HOME LIFE:
I’ve sworn at my parents.
I’ve been kicked out of the house.
I do not have a sibling less than one year old.
I want to have kids someday.

EMBARRASSMENT:
Disney movies still make me cry.
I’ve snorted while laughing.
I’ve laughed so hard I’ve cried.
I’ve glued my hand to something.
I’ve laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
I’ve had my pants rip in public. [T-Pain concert, lol]

HEALTH:
I was born healthy.
I’ve had stitches.
I’ve broken a bone.
I have not had my tonsils removed.
I’ve sat in a doctor’s office with a friend.
I have not had my wisdom teeth removed.
I have never had surgery.
I’ve had chicken pox.

TRAVELING:
I’ve driven over 200 miles in one day.
I’ve never been to Canada.
I’ve been to Israel.
I’ve never Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
I live about 2 hours away from France.

EXPERIENCES:
I’ve been lost in my city.
I’ve never seen a shooting star.
I’ve gone out in public in my pajamas.
I’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
I’ve been to a casino.
I’ve never been skydiving.
I’ve gone skinny dipping.
I’ve played spin the bottle.
I’ve crashed a car.
I’ve never been skiing.
I’ve been in a play.
I’ve met someone in person from the internet.
I’ve never seen snow.
I’ve sat on a roof top at night.
I’ve played chicken.
I’ve played a prank on someone.
I’ve ridden in a taxi.
I’ve seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
I’ve eaten Sushi.

RELATIONSHIPS:
I’m married. literally.
I’m available.
I’ve never gone on a blind date.
I’ve been the dumpee more than the dumper.
I miss someone right now.
I have a fear of abandonment.
I’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back.
I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
I’ve kept something from a past relationship.

SEXUALITY:
I’ve had a crush on someone of the same gender. -no homo- lol
I’ve kissed a member of the same gender.
I’ve had sex with more than one person at the same time.
I am a cuddler.
I’ve been kissed in the rain.
I’ve had sex outdoors.
I’ve hugged a stranger.
I have never kissed a stranger.
I have never had sex with a stranger.

HONESTY/CRIME:
I’ve done something I promised someone else I wouldn’t.
I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t.
I have lied to my parents about where I am.
I am keeping a secret from the world.
I’ve cheated while playing a game.
I’ve cheated on a test.
I’ve run a red light.
I’ve been suspended from school.
I’ve witnessed a crime.
I’ve been in a fist fight.
I’ve never been arrested.
I’ve shoplifted.

DRUGS/ALCOHOL:
I’ve consumed alcohol.
I’ve NEVER smoked a cigarette.
I‘ve smoked weed.
I used to drink, regularly.
I’ve taken painkillers when I didn’t need them.
I’ve never done hard drugs.
I’ve never been addicted to an illegal drug

soAMBITIOUS

Motivation for me, is them telling me what I could not be, oh well

I felt so inspired by what the teacher said
Said I'd either be dead or be a reefer head
Not sure if that’s how adults should speak to kids
Especially when the only thing I did was speak in class
I'll teach his ass
Even better what my uncle did
I popped my demo tape in start to beat my head
Peeked out my eye, see if he was beatin’ his
He might as well said beat it kid, He’s on the list
It’s like im searching for kicks like a sneaker head
You gon’ keep pushing me until I reach the ledge
And when I reach the ledge, I tell em all to eat a dick
Take a leap of faith and let my eagle wings spread

Motivation for me, is them telling me what I could not be, oh well

I went from pauper to the president, cuz every deal I ever made said precedent
Niggas probably thought I'd fall without ol' buddy, oh buddy
What I do is make more money

Dear teacher, you probably somewhere near, speaker
Im balling out of control, can you hear my sneakers?! Fuck yall!!

--Hova

iRep the VI

Presenting Verse Simmonds. a Virgin Island's native :o)


def couldn't 4get about R. City! still waiting for the album to drop..

swineFLU :o/

yes. you read that fck'd up ass headline correctly. the lady from PUBLIC HEALTH called me today and said "we got your cultures back today. you tested POSiTiVE for H1N1/Swine Flu." i literally yelled at her. wtf?! how the fck did GLENESSE DAVID-NICK contract fckn swine flu?! beats me. idk why i yelled at the lady on the phone either, not like its her fault or anything. i was just in shock, i guess. either way, i dont have it anymore. she basically said once my fever was gone i'm good. my fevers been gone since Monday. so i'm good. &nd not dieing anymore. :o)

5 Star Bitch

comPROMISE :o)

I believe its Katt Williams who said "don't leave a nigga that 95% good". Well, I honestly cosign the shit outta that statement. Relationships aren't perfect. They'll never be. They're not supposed to be. How can you grow if there isn't a heated debate every now and then?! Now, once physical violence presents itself, RUN. &nd don't turn back. Been there, done that, bought the shirt. What I'm saying is this: if you have a REAL man on your hands, one who takes care of his business [bills, family, etc.] but you don't like the way he's always watching football (or some other random shit) maybe you should reevaluate yourself. Try and enjoy things WITH your man. Sit your ass down & try WATCHING games with him. Try LEARNING how to play Madden. See where I'm going with this?! Your relationship is as good as you make it. You should be trying to enjoy every bit of each others time. &nd even if a argument or 2 creeps in, just remember this: breakup 2 makeup. cause aint nothing like some wild MONKEY sex after a heated argument. lol

"born in 88.. how old is that?! old enough!"
--Kanye West

questions.

Well I used to love to see your long colorful nails & cute hair styles. Girl don't be letting the Army stop your flyness at least get back the weave. Oh & Happy Birthday again. Enjoy
-lol! okay, i got you! :o)

Link on the right if you'd like to submit questions/statements as well! :oT

life.

"Damn I wanna run to you. Hold you, kiss you, tell you how I miss you. Thought I would of had a son for you. But now it’s official. It’s over and I can’t let you go."

--Nicki Minaj

"its very seldom that your blessed to find your equal, still play my part and let you take the lead role. believe me."

--Beyonce

"Well maybe you was neglected, cause when you take the front down & strip a nigga naked you dyin to be accepted."

--Joe Budden

"your innocent smile used to drive me wild even though you ain’t innocent at all and now I feel so stupid cause I’m the only girl that ever loved you even with all your flaws. even your best friend questioned why I still would be with you after knowing your past, but what he didn’t understand is knowing your past is why I thought we could last"

--Marques Houston

more questions.

u look nice but i liked you much better w/ your long hair & nails. What happened to the diva i used to know?
-the Army has regulations on how long our nails can be, so I keep them short & clear now, unless its the weekend. in regards to my hair: i've only had 2 ppl weave my hair, ever. neither of them are in Germany, lol. I'm working that issue though! :o)

Where is my bag? Cuzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.
- i'm guessing this is my cousin T'shai, lol. your bag is still in the store hun! only because i haven't been shopping out in the economy in a minute.. patience though.
Keep em coming...
click here to ask something!

BLACKJACK!

Happy Birthday to Meee!
finally 21! wow. okay. all smiles :oT

ask me. honestly.

you ever been in a 3 some? and if yes what kind was it? you and 2 dudes, you and 2 girls or one of each?
- lol. no. never been in one. i don't like sharing. :-T

OFF TO A GOOD START! Keep em coming...
click here to ask something!

WE GOT THEM GUNS

Fuck a medic, we gon’ call yo ass a taxi cab
Bleedin so hard you’ll need a life size maxi pad
So flip the script and tell your woman its your time of the month
A.K. 47 for the niggaz who’s really looking for heaven and a 9 for you chumps
Got killaz in my squad and I’m the nicest one in my group
But I got bananas for you niggaz and I aint talking bout fruit
I’ll peel your CAP BACK with the BLACK MACK
Till your BACK CRACK, cock the GAT BACK like…CLAK CLAK CLAK
Swallow a hallow make ‘em digest with a 50 caliber
Yo futures not looking so good, tomorrows not on your calendar

— LUDA

internetTHUG?!

I started feeling like it was about time I blogged about something. I didn't know what yet, until i logged onto the INTERNATIONALLY known [http://www.twitter.com]. Now I'm sitting here like WHAT THE FCK?! Since the internet is the new HOME OF THE BRAVE "twitter battling" and "internet beef" has become the new craze. Its really sweeping the nation too. Characters that would NEVER approach you face to face or even breathe in your direction now hide behind the shield of their keyboard and mouse. So your brave now?! Hmmmn. Riddle me this Batman: WOULD BE AS BRAVE W/O THE TECHNOLOGY?! Would you say the same things in person as you do over the world wide web?! If not, shut the fck up. & sit the fck down. Everybody's "real" in the comfort of their own home. Its what you do out in the real world that would determine your persona. Stop immitating these rappers, they gone get you fck'd up, lol. They got guards and $$$ to hide behind. Your average ass out in the open. So sit and ponder that..

lmfao.

**sidenote: he WAS wrong for what he did to that grl..

Jimmy Choo ♥

desktop Sunday! =)

Proverbs 3:5-6

"Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he stall direct they paths."

• Dress: GJ Bandage dress
• Shoes: Christian Louboutin Mary Jane Pumps
• Accessories:  Blue waist belt

Futuristic Love

I have to admit: its a cute song.

The Big Body Mazda

fml

since my iPhone currently looks like this:


I'm back to this: